I fainted, as quick as a finger snap. I could not handle blood, it made me pass out incredibly fast. My eyelids slowly opened, pupils adjusting to the change of light. I awoke as I noticed it was incredibly sunny, the sky was blue, I had to think about how amazing it was to see the sky again. It was a deep shade of aqua maureen today, incredibly peaceful. I assumed this was a guest room, it was very blank, not seeming with life. A few black and white pictures in frames on the left side wall while all neutral non condescending colours were in abundance. I quickly climbed out of the oak bed wanting to know what had exactly happened last night, though I stopped to stare out of the georgian windows onto the front lawn, there were rows of fruit trees lining the driveway down to the road as a lawnmower was mowing the grass in incredibly complicated ways I had not thought of before.
I walked out of the white doorway onto a hallway stretching to the great beyond. It seemed to never end as I saw rows upon rows of white doors, all closed while on the walls there were great works of art being illuminated by the spotlights near the gold leafed molding.
“There you are!” James shouted from the far back of the hallway. He walked my way, I was not exactly sure how to respond to that. I could say, yes, here I am, but I had no clue where I was, I could say yes, I have been looking for you, but I had been not because I was incredibly puzzled and flustered about last night in general.
“I just woke up? I dont really know where I am, and also what happened last night!” I asked, clueless.
“Well, I guess you were that drunk to, glad to see you had some fun!”
“No, like I remember someone bleeding a lot on a carpet, and yeah, do you not remember?” “Wait what, is this important, had I missed something? To be honest I dont remember last night at all” He chuckled as he rubbed his head.
“Oh, well not surprising,” I gave him a questionable stare as my tone was sarcastic.
“Bailey was looking for you.” He was unmoved by the statement I had just said, probably because he in fact knew it was true or he would have remembered last nights insane times.
“Yeah this house is monstrous, take me to her please?” I gave a huge smile, it was convincing enough.
I followed him through doorways upon doorways upon doorways as he explained to me about Bailey into detail. I had no previous idea or assumption that this could be her house, though I learned it was quite hers. He explained to me that her parents are major real estate tycoons in England, but that is one of the reasons her parents are never home, which she made up for the loneliness by throwing extravagant parties at her place. I was extremely envious, she had the body, the face, the life in my opinion. Of course I have not learned of her cracks. Everyone has cracks that you learn or do not learn from the person. No ones life is amazing, it just looks amazing, or at least this was my theory.
I walked into the familiar room where I had seen the violent colour blood last night. The bright wood panels were lit from the sun shining through the windows, revealing details I had not seen before as prisms of light glared on the wall from the chandelier. The group of four, being comprised of Calvin, James, Bailey, and myself were all together in the grand room. It felt like I was important, I belonged to a group of people as friends, the feeling was incredibly new to me. I intended on keeping that feeling for as long as i could hold on to its slippery hold. That planned failed miserably as my pupils drew attention to the white bandage around Calvin’s lower thigh, the white gauze wrapped around several times. He was sitting on the same couch I had sat on previously last night watching him make a fool of himself, he just smiled, stupid, making me think about how cute he was.
“”Yes, I knew I wasn’t incredibly “drunk”, I knew I remembered seeing blood then morbidly fainting. See, I am not crazy.”" I glared at James, though giving a tease filled look at him suppressing how incredibly upset I was at him and everyone else that had let this happen go unnoticed. I reminded myself to count to ten, and not let my guard off, calm and collected I whispered to myself.
“Let me explain,” Bailey volunteered as I was about to open my mouth to speak another cold sentence I would later regret.
“Wait, why not Calvin, he is perfectly capable!”
“No, no, he does not even remember, also he is very bad at storytelling, he tried to tell me stories about the two of you last night and well, they sucked.”
“Wait, I did?” Calvin jumped up to question the truth of her statement as he smirked.
“Shhh, you just sit there and listen, you dickhead.” She insisted.
To be frank I was jumping up and down emotionally. He had been talking about me to other people! I wasn’t used to thinking people do these things for other people, compliments or something like that. They dont exist anymore I was pretty sure. What sucks is that Calvin had been getting better and better at getting me to notice him and his genuine personality, I didnt want this to partake in any greater feelings, I wanted it to stay here, floored on the ground. I walked around to the right of the room sitting in a huge black leather chair, sinking into the deep cushions as the armrests engulfed me, ready to listen and completely and utterly unprepared about what I could hear.
“Basically here is a outline of what happened in a basic timeline format.” She began to use her hands to tell her story, motioning from imaginary points to other non existent imaginary points.
“So I wasnt drunk because I dont get drunk on the basis of this is my house and I would not like having it burnt down or have the cops come over, which would put a damper on the party I threw.” She failed to mention how burning the house down would lose millions of dollars of assets and memories in the meantime.
“I was walking to the living room to see what Calvin was doing and Jacob and Alan and more people you dont know, I don’t know why I mentioned them in the first place, so just erase that from your mind. I never said that. So anyway I was going in and I saw Calvin horribly drunk and he was in a fight, if thats what you will call it, with the few of them. It was over well, that doesnt matter, and then one of them got a vodka bottle and smashed it into his leg. So that was a blast if I do say so myself.I ran the guy out with a knife from the kitchen, I do not think he will be back anytime soon. And basically thats the story of bloodloss to Calvin’s upper thigh whilst being drunk on a Sunday night. You may now clap if you would like.” I watched as Calvin clapped frantically, I joined in a tad, fake laughing. Not only was I left with more confusion then I had in the first place, but also disappointment that Calvin would get into a fight. It was so unlike him, but people drunk in general were never like themselves.
“Thank you, thank you, I will be back anytime soon!” She said, bowing as her plaid brown and white knee high socks stretched forwards as she bent down to take a long and awkward bow in the large airy room.
“Is it serious, or what, the injury that is!” “Oh, well he cant really walk that well, I mean we need to take him to a hospital, he needs stiches. I will pay for them, my parents wouldn’t even notice. I think atleast two weeks, the cuts were gruesome, and deeply situated, but hey, I am not master surgeon.”
“Can I go to my room, I need to think and I am kind of lightheaded.” I asked, after I spurted out a quick lie to not end a question with I need to think as it could have so many infinite meanings and conclusions drawn by this. But in more seriousness I faced a dilemma. Really?, I said to myself as James walked me back to my neutral coloured room. Could something else brutally damaging to this adventure happen, how about adding more questions and stress to my situation!
As I turned the freezing iron knob connected to the white door a 180 degree angle I thought about what I was going to do now. I slowly walked to the bed, its white bedspread gave the entire room a uplifting feel, lightening the spirits of the room. I sat, staring out the windows onto the great lawn and trees, watching the robins fly hastily around.
“You look puzzled.” James broke the silence with this question, he must have been good with reading emotions off peoples faces. I wasn’t easy to read, I put up quite a front, I was gladly surprised he had noticed.
“Tell me about it.” I said pessimistically as my voice drifted to the far corners of the room, bouncing back and producing noise that was my incredibly scratchy voice.
“Do tell.” He responded hastily, I knew he was already interested in what I was about to say. I had a strange notion that I could trust the fellow, he seemed genuine. Must have been gay, damn life. Yes I have a theory about nice guys. I mean lets be frank here, how many guys are attractive, nice, trustworthy, make you laugh,nice tastes in things, the gay ones. It never worked out for me, life must have been out to get me, its my curse, I wasn’t going to ask him, just in the back of my mind.
“Fine, better settle down then, here, sit here.” I pointed to the “library green” coloured chair in the corner next to the white and glass wardrobe and bronzed standing lamp with a striped shade.
I loved spilling my soul out to people, it was rare nowadays to find someone that was willing to listen without preconceived notions of sorts. I never told things that I was afraid could be judged against me to Calvin, I didnt want him to think less of me, so I kept things from him. It felt so incredible to let things out, to just have a gust of cold pure air wisp away the worries I have held for so long. I only could hope James wouldn’t do the thing I was afraid of after I had talked to him.
“Wow, okay first off you have to promise not to judge me or anything, I swear! I know how cool you are so I don’t want you pulling some shade over my eyes kid!” as I gave nonchalant and mildly sarcastic tone, his brunette hair sparked as he laughed a few.
“Yes, I am cool, and also a kid. These are both lies, we have started off great if I do say so myself”
“Shut it!” I said as the rays of sunlight began to be lost through the glass panes as the brightly lit yellow sun passed up to the teal sky. He pulled up his tanned arms and signaled zipping up his lips as I gave a tiny smile.
“So I am worried about a lot of things. It’s just, for one I have no clue what I am doing with my life, and I constantly freak out about this. I mean what about universities, what about my life for god’s sake. Of course I am mad, what was my mum thinking when she left, how about my life, its not all about her! I don’t know why I even care any more about her, it is my life, I shouldn’t be spending my dads money on looking for a parent that sucks. Then the whole Calvin thing, I fucking kissed him last night, and I don’t regret it.” He continued to quietly listen as I rambled even more useless things about my life. We all have issues, my issues are the same as everyones else. I need to stop feeling so important and be more of a realist.
“Yeah then today, I don’t even know what to do now. I mean I have to make a important decision, I CANT MAKE DECISIONS. I can’t justify my actions anymore. I am just broken inside, I think I crossed my line of comfort long ago. I can stay here with Calvin and you guys and give up the search for my parent that gave birth to me, or look for her and leave you guys. I really don’t know what is important anymore, thats the fucked up part. Hm, is that enough rambling?” I then fell back falling onto the comforting mattress, my bland hair was a mess as it slowly bounced up and down after I fell.
“First off, I love listening so stop feeling like its a negative thing to share your issues with me because i don’t mind so just stop that silly. I think you should leave, find your mum.”
“Wait what!” Shocked as I jumped up to look at him as my eyes were brightly lit with surprise.
“Well think about it, your mum could be anywhere, and you have known her all your life. Sure she was a bit of a twat to go leave you, but ever think something could have happened and she has a answer for it. I mean no one just leaves there daughter for the heck of it right. We will always be here waiting for you to, we wont disappear, we are your friends Lexi.” His deep hazel eyes stared into mine, grasping my last breath I had. He meant what he had just said, I was touched, as hydrogen oxygen began running down my pores. His hands quickly reached around mine as soon enough all I could see was the back of his shoulder as his sea foam and white polo stretched.
“It will be fine, don’t worry.” His soft down to earth voice relaxed my nerves. I quickly swept off to dreams soon afterwords.
